Photographer

Life is Why

“Wow, that’s a really nice camera you got there!” … Is something photographers hear a lot, often from the person in the room that knows the least about cameras. :)

A friend of mine Francesco (and bad ass photographer) used to say to me, “When people eat great food at a restaurant, do they say, ‘Wow! This food tastes good. The chef must use a really nice oven!’? No.”

The point is, to me, the camera is irrelevant in some ways. If you don’t know how to use it, or if your subject isn’t feelin’ the moment, if the light isn’t giving you that glow or that edge…. the photo will be flat, emotionless, —bad.

At the moment, the only photo I care about, is this one. …

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And it was taken with my iPhone… an “old” iPhone as many might say. But this photo is real. This photo captures how I truly feel inside as a mother.

And it is that realness that I am always working to find when I am photographing a couple, family, or individual. What are the gestures, the actions, the expressions we make every day, that tell the story of our real life— the human experience. We don’t smile blankly… we give subtle glances, we laugh, we hug, we snuggle, we take deep breaths.

So people, I am glad you like my camera. Yes it is a tool that helps me do what I love to do. But a camera has absolutely nothing to do with why I am a photographer, or how I want you to feel when you look at my photos.

Life is why.

 
 

Photographer For Life

The only compliment better than being recommended to friends and family, is to be called back to photograph another chapter of a couple’s love story.

When I photographed this family last weekend, I remember the look in their eyes, when they looked at each other on their engagement shoot, back in 2012. Their minds filled with the possibilities, of “imagine when…” and “what if we…”. And BOOM, the dream is reality..

Love, commitment, growth, then family…

And when these little ones arrive, love takes on a whole new meaning. And that person who makes you laugh, isn’t just there for the fun times. Now you have history together. Hard times, busy schedules, and routine changes us, but it all comes back to this… Two people dreaming of how wonderful life could be, when spending it together.

Change doesn't happen over night, but sometimes it feels like it does. Meeting my husband feels like a life time ago, but still vivid enough to feel like it was only yesterday. I was so naive to the fact that my whole life just changed in that instant. And here we are, almost four years married, and our son in my arms. The cycle of life is profound, I am so thankful that I get to capture it.

If This Bunny Could Talk!

I had to hold back tears when I unwrapped this soft little bunny, and gave it a hug for the first time. My sister Amanda, hand made it for my son before he was born.

If his bunny could talk, it might say…

“You were so small, and I blinked my eyes and now you are bigger than I am! You are getting so strong, and soon you will be dragging me by the arm on so many adventures.”

A few months later, I placed baby Amir next to his bunny, and was shocked at how small he was compared to it. Each month I photograph Amir with his bunny, and it shows not only how he is growing in size, but where he is at developmentally. He recently turned six months old, and I could no longer get him to stay still or lay on his back.

I have now added a photography package called “Milestones”. So that parents can capture their teeny tiny new born, their awakening 2-4 month old, their sitting and smiling 6 month old, and their cake smashing, wobbly walking one year old! Each of these chapters in the first year are so special and unique from one another. It is almost like a new person emerges with each phase. I recommend that parents choose an item for us to photograph their baby with, and that object will tell a story! … You were once tiny, then you grew, and grew, and grew! :)

Contact me for more info on Milestones photo packages!

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Destination Wedding, Jamaica

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My husband and I watched the palm trees blowing in the breeze and asked each other, “Why are we going home tomorrow”? Lesson learned! When I am flown out to a tropical island to photograph a destination wedding, stay longer! Stay much MUCH longer! :)

These cold winter months in New Jersey have me dreaming of that warm Jamaican sunshine, fresh papaya, and the hot crispy grilled catch of the day! Add some Coca Bread to that too please! If you are looking to get married in Jamaica, the food and the stay at the Hyatt in Montego Bay was outstanding! 

Okay, OKAY! Enough about the food Sarah! Let’s talk love!

What I loved about this wedding was that despite some things not going exactly as planned, the day was perfect, and the bride and groom never lost sight of why they were truly there. Their vows were misplaced by the staff, so they spoke from the heart, and it was spontaneous, raw, and so real! And perhaps my favorite First Look of all time, was when the groom saw his two beautiful daughters all dressed up for his wedding day! … Were there tears? Oh yes, there were tears! :)

Please Don't Grow

How can your heart grow bigger and break apart all at the same time? Just have a baby, and watch them grow.

My friend Jenn said it perfectly,

“Parenting is a continual process of letting go and welcoming the new”.

Having a baby is the perfect metaphor for time passing. No matter how tight we hold them, and no matter how deeply we look into their eyes, we cannot hold onto time.

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Perhaps that’s why I love photography so much.

It is the closest thing we can do, to hold onto time. To at the very least, take a little trip back into our memories.

Haven’t we all tried to stop time? Like, when we were on a date, young and in love, and we knew it had to come to an end, but we just wanted to kiss in the parking lot a little bit longer. Or when on vacation, and the sun and the breeze mixed together in a way, that just made us want to melt into the waves, and never ever worry about real life again!

Children remind us just how quickly time is moving… It already feels like a dream that we felt that first kick inside our bellies. Before we know it, that moment of holding their helpless newborn body to our chest, is a distant memory as well.

“It goes so fast”, EVERYONE tells you this, but still …it’s so so fast. It’s almost too fast to bear.

As I fold up the onesie that was once too big, but is already too small, I say to my baby out loud, “please don’t grow”. But of course, I don’t really mean that. Watching our little ones grow is a one of life’s greatest blessings. But I know, one day, when my little baby is a grown man, I’ll pull that tiny onesie out of the box… I will fall to my knees, press it to my face, and my heart will break and fill with gratitude all at once.